the feeling

when i close my eyes all i see is you 
when i open my eyes all i know is the feeling of missing you

i kept myself busy but when i pause i still think of you

the two things define you

Your patience when you have nothing 
and
your attitude when you have everything

I have experienced both... in a past

the reserved/ quite and shy 

the outspoken/ ego and not in need for help, any kind of it....

I am now, trying to balance out everything. To be a better and calm person

Alam Maya (Phil Becket) - Sedalam Dalam Rindu (cover)

17th Jan 2010- Garden

Delicious- There are two tragedies in life, one is not getting what their want and the other is getting it.

"everyone's heartbroken nowadays, but we all just got to move on. What's the point of reminiscing when you know the person is no longer worth while; when they're no longer who they used to be? When their heart is somewhere else? Do you think they still care for you, sit there thinking about you? Frankly.... they don't"

I have put my past behind me, but i have to say i still do... missing you some time.

It takes a thought to make a word

Life is what you make of it. Be grateful, you will feel content for the biggest or smallest things in life.Stop comparing yourself to others, work with what you have and make the best out if it.

Be happy, love yourself, be at peace within you because life is beautiful

2016... goodbye

3^rd day of 2017…

2016 was a challenging year with few bad incidents and some good things that happened.

Bad Things

I was working without pay since April and counting..  Yes, still.
I had a few meltdowns, I was at my lowest. I wish I had the courage to tell my parents that I am going through difficult time but I just can’t.

I lost blackie on auction in Oct, it hurts.

I was served with writ of summon for my personal financing. Went to court for the hearing, was given a time to settle the dues, expecting the salary to be cleared but nothing yet.

Good Things

I managed to keep snowy with me and I am slowly accepting the fact that blackie is no longer mine

I managed to do full settlement on my ocbc credit card, thank you to little brother for his help (technically I borrowed from him)

I managed to settle some of the outstanding dues for my cash financing, thanks to someone dear who have helped me continuously since April.. to her I owe my sincere appreciation and I am meaning to pay her back

I got my salary, but not in full. Alhamdulillah with that 10k, I managed to settle some outstanding for snowy/ the cash financing and few others. The Company still owe me 29k as at Dec 2016

I got promoted with a huge raise on my payroll and bonus

I survived

My hope for 2017

To have all my outstanding salaries

To do more good things for my family especially my mom and dad.

To be a better daughter/ sister/ friend and on top of that to be a better muslimah.

To recite the Quran everyday even if it just one page

To save more/ spend less as 2017 is predicted to be a financially challenging year for everyone,

To start tabung Umrah for Mom/ Dad and myself

So happy new year… 2017, I am ready.

Dear Allah, please keep me humble before you, and firmly grounded in the correct belief. Protect me with your hidayah, and keep me in your IMAN.

love

Falling in love is the greatest feeling in this world but not when you fall in love with someone, whom you can't get. It hurts sometimes, and it can be very painful when you miss that person.